Wednesday 12 October 2016

Third Review

I am now in the third review stage.

It is really strange how the lessons, or this time the instructions to the review always reflect my mood.

For example this is in the beginning of the review...

Unwillingness can be most carefully concealed behind a cloak of situations. Learn to distinguish situations that are poorly suited to your practicing from those that you establish to uphold a camouflage for your unwillingness.

That's exactly how I was feeling last week and I couldn't understand why I was unwilling to put myself into the lessons and commit.

The review will therefore be helpful as I feel it is needed and I can embrace it correctly now.


Tuesday 11 October 2016

Lesson 110

Today's lesson is all about accepting who we are.

I don't believe that means we can't improve on what we are, but it means to accept our flaws and be the best of who we can be.

I really think this means we should be as lovely as we can be and be as nice to others as possible. I try so hard to be caring and polite. This is not always appreciated but I find the odd time it is accepted it really makes a difference. 

When we accept who we are, I also think it important to accept others as they are. 

I have found it extremely distressing to read and hear other peoples reaction to Will Young leaving Strictly Come Dancing. Although normally a person walking out of reality TV show wouldn't normally enter my thoughts, this time it has. He has left claiming 'personal reasons' and although I have no idea what these reasons are many people have jumped to conclusions. He had a very short row with one of the judges and many are commenting he has left in a strop or he doesn't like being criticised and thrown his toys out of the pram.

Whilst I don't know Will at all, I have met him a couple of times through my radio work, but that doesn't mean I know him, it is well documented he suffers from mental health issues. It is also reported he had six months of treatment after an emotional breakdown.

What if the pressures of a relatively TV show was too much for him and he has seen the warning signs and what if he has done the right thing by recognising this and choosing his own health over the appearance fee.

I do believe we should always accept people for what they are and not judge, everyone has personal problems, every one is fighting an internal fight, even if they are incredible dancers on a reality TV show.

Monday 10 October 2016

Lesson 109

I took a few days off. I wasn't feeling inspired and the lessons were feeling a bit of a chore and I didn't want that.

At one point I contemplated giving up and finding another path, but I relaxed and tried to not worry and I felt the time is now right to return, so here I am back, refreshed and happy.

Lesson 109 is all about peace and rest. Which is quite apt considering that's what I have been doing this week. I had a week off with not too much to do, I was quite selfish, went on plenty of country walks with my dog, chilled out and tried to catch up with sleep!

I think it is important to rest, something I, like most people, have little time to do. As a mother of an eight year old boy who loves being active I have very little time to myself. My son has far more party's to go to than I would ever dream of and his football fixtures takes him far and wide, which obviously I have to drive him to. I am not complaining, far from it, but it does give me very little time to reflect and rest.

This is why it today's lesson is so important, to take time out from the day, even if for a few minutes an hour to appreciate the day and to slow down even if just for a moment.

Sunday 2 October 2016

Lesson 108

Have you ever noticed in a discussion or argument if you suddenly stop being aggressive and give out kindness,  the other person also calms down?

That's what today's lesson is all about, only giving out peace, quietness and gentleness. Whatever you give is also what you recieve.

If all you give out is these qualities then you will only recieve those qualities back.

All I am to do is give out peace from no onwards. It won't be easy as I do have a tendency to flair if I am pushed!

I do believe the theory behind today's lesson it's just if practically I can achieve it as I believe we all have a breaking point, maybe that's what I have to erase to move forward.

Saturday 1 October 2016

Lesson 107

This lesson centres around truth and not believing in illusions.

Truth is that everything that happens is there to teach, guide and ultimately lead to happiness. The illusions are that everything that is happening around you that you may not see as favourable is there to make you unhappy.

I am off work officially now for a week. I am though having to go in for a few hours on Monday afternoon. To begin with I wasn't very happy with the circumstance, but really there is no problem, I am working with people who I don't often see and who I actually enjoy greatly working with. I am also earning overtime, which is greatly appreciated! The afternoon will be more like a social occasion that I am being paid for so how can I be anything else than happy!

Today lesson really is another way of turning around your thoughts on all situations.

Friday 30 September 2016

Lesson 106

Lesson 106 is about keeping calm and ignoring your ego.

In everyday circumstances this is now simple, I can identify most of the times when my ego is screaming at me. But as soon as something a little bit more than an everyday annoyance rears its ugly head it's a battle for me to keep the ego quite. I am better now at identifying it so I am making progress. But I still have flashes of choosing the ego over my calmness.

The more progress and lessons taken then I am holding it will then become second nature to never lesson to ego.

Thursday 29 September 2016

Lesson 105

I continue on the theme of happiness. Todays lesson is about peace and joy.

These last few days have been repetitive and although I don't mind that, I do find my mind is wondering from the lessons as I don't feel I am exploring any new concepts. Perhaps the point of the repetitiveness is to make putting happiness first second nature.

Is it becoming second nature for me? In small ways yes, but I haven't taken any big leaps away from everything that doesn't bring me peace. I was having a lunch with a friend the other day and we were discussing changing careers. I had so many excuses on why I couldn't at the moment make that leap. I have a child, I have a mortgage, I have other huge bills and the list of reasons why went on and on.

Should I be responsible yet not at peace or should I be trusting that everything will work out if I follow my heart?

I will continue the lessons and see if it becomes clear.